I know I haven't been very active. And when I have, I know I haven't kept promises I've made. And I'm truly sorry for that. But if you're reading this, I need your help.
I know six months ago I wrote a journal entry regarding defeating my depression. Well...it hasn't gone very well. I'm still suffering...very deeply. It's awful. It's one of the worst things a person can go through. I can barely get up to go to work in the morning. It's tough to maintain the relationships I hold dear. It's even hard to take care of myself.
I don't enjoy my work. It's extremely unfulfilling, and all it does is help me survive. My life feels as though I'm not contributing to anything, that I'm spinning my wheels and that I'm useless. The things I enjoy...I don't enjoy them anymore.
So where do you come in? Well...
...I want to feel like I'm giving back. I want to feel like I'm contributing something to this world. I want to be one of those people. It'd be amazing if I could make others happy, and make money while doing it, but I'm not naive enough to believe that I can make a living off my art.
What I need to know is...does my art make you happy? I know I'm not the greatest artist in the world, but does it give you something to look forward to? Does it enhance your life, even a little? Whether it inspires you or simply gives you a warm feeling in your heart, I need to know. I want to make use of what I have so I can make a difference for others. So I feel like I have a purpose. I feel like it's the only way I can help manage to defeat this depression.
Please. Let me know in the comments. I want to make more art. Let me know if it's worth it.